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Blog entry by Sheila Landry (scrollgirl) posted 12-23-2016 02:06 PM 845 reads 0 times favorited 9 comments Add to Favorites Watch
« Part 1808: Letting Go of a Friend Part 1809 of My Journey As A Creative Designer - Woodworking and Beyond series Part 1810: Back to Blogging . . . »

I am not going to kid you all. This has been a tough couple of weeks. I have struggled more than I have in a long time and I am still trying to recover from recent things that happened. I am getting there, but it is going to take a bit longer, I am afraid.

I know that isn't what you are used to seeing from me. In general, I am a very positive person. A fighter. Someone who is able to look at even not-so-nice things and try to find a grain of something good in them. Keith used to say that I lived on a "Pink Cloud". A place where optimism reigned supreme.

I like living there. I truly believe that our attitude helps dictate the direction that our life heads. I try to look at every situation from the positive side. For even things that are painful to us allow us to grow, learn and feel. It is part of the process of our life.



But losing my kitty Pancakes so suddenly to cancer was a huge hit. He was young. I never saw it coming. The last thing we expected when we dropped him off at the vet was that we would never see him again. I just wasn't prepared for the outcome.

I spent the first week after his death in shock and mourning. Those of you who have pets understand. I heard stories from many of you that were close to my heart, as many of you had gone through the same with your own sweet companions. You understood the hurt, anger and deep feeling of loss that I felt. You understood the pain – both physical and emotional. You understood the sadness.

With each passing day,  it became a bit easier. The slow process of 'acceptance' had begun and the feelings of pain and hurt were beginning to be replaced gradually with feelings of love. I was starting to be able to see photos of him and instead of crying, I smiled. I thought about the antics he did with me and realized how fortunate I was these past nine years to have him in my life. I am so grateful for the short time we had.



Then last Saturday, just as I was beginning to heal, things shifted again. My other cat Richard became violently ill. I spent the last weekend nursing him and talking on the phone to the best vet in the world who was trying to counsel me on treating him. We had an ice storm here and the roads were horrendous on Saturday and the vet's office is about 45 minutes away. It would have been dangerous for us to try to get him to the clinic. We tried our best.

On Sunday, Richard showed some improvement in that he stopped vomiting, but little else to give us hope. He fell into a lull and even though I had been giving him fluids by eyedropper, we knew he was severely dehydrated and very ill. Late in the afternoon, we made the decision to take him into the clinic. We were glad we did.

To make a long story short, we saved his life. He had a high fever and what turned out to be a liver infection. We had to leave him at the clinic for nearly two days and didn't get him back until Tuesday afternoon. They had to give him five IV treatments along with antibiotics, steroids and a pill to help his liver recover. When we brought him home, he looked 'better' but was still weak and had much healing ahead. But we are grateful he is home. And grateful that he is alive.



It sure put things in perspective.

It shifted my feelings of sadness and loss of my dear Pancakes to one of concern and worry for my Rich. It isn't as if I am not still mourning the loss of Pancakes, but the gratitude that filled my heart that Richard is alright has helped me realize just how fortunate I am. It has helped me look at things in a slightly different way and focus on what gifts I have instead of what I have lost. It somehow made things a bit easier.

This realization does not at all diminish the love I have for my sweet Pancakes, but rather helps me appreciate the time I had with him even more. In looking back, I saw some changes in his behavior. I had attributed that to moving to our new home, as I was even still adjusting to that. He was a very sensitive kitty and I thought that the change had more effect on him than the others. But looking back through knowing eyes, I realize that these small changes were clues to what was really happening. He was sick and probably hurting and didn't have any other way to tell us. He had become 'crankier' than normal and his tolerance was much lower of things and he was quieter. Looking back, I think he was slowly distancing himself from us. It was his way of letting us know something was wrong.

By realizing these things, I also realize that he was spared a great deal of pain. If his condition had gone undetected much longer, it would have certainly caused him great pain and suffering. I take comfort in that his final days were filled with love and relatively pain-free. He passed from this world to the next as gentle as possible. I am grateful for that.



Richard is slowly recovering. Now it is Friday and he is nearly back to his normal self. He is on several medications and will be for a couple of weeks. We will then bring him back for some more tests to be sure his liver was recovering as it should. We think we are out of the woods.



I used to love to sit at the beach and watch the waves. I could sit there for hours doing just that. Their never-ending rhythm of rolling to the shore would both calm and sooth me.

In a way, I think that I can assimilate the events of our life to those waves.

Day by day each event that occurs to us keeps rolling in, unrelenting. Each event is different. Some are good. Some are not so good. But no matter what happens or how it affects us, life goes on, as the waves keep coming. That is part of living.

I have decided to take the rest of this year off to continue to heal and reflect on some things. I have been blogging for over seven years and have barely missed a few days during that period. I always strive to bring something good and positive to you all and hopefully encourage you to be positive as well as creative. I truly feel that is one of my most important purposes here on this Earth. But I need some more time to heal. It would be a farce if I came here pretending that I am unaffected by the events in my life. I wouldn't be true to you all or to myself either.



On a final note, I want to thank you all for your wonderfully sweet and encouraging words, notes, gifts, and thoughts. I am astounded at the number of people who really do understand and care. I try to answer them all, but sometimes I just run out of energy. I need to step away from the computer so that I can focus on something else and heal and move forward. I hope you understand.



For those of you who celebrate Christmas, Keith and I both wish you a very merry day. For those of you who do not, we also wish you well. May you all have a wonderful holiday season and a happy, healthy and creative new year ahead.

We are so appreciative of you all. So many of you are not only customers or readers, but true friends. We are ever so grateful for you love and support, both in our business and personally. Thank you.

I know that there are great things to come in the upcoming year. I can't wait to show you as I implement my ideas. We will focus on the good things and the joys that life offers and hopefully, it will enrich our lives and make them a bit happier.



Take care.  

-- Designer/Artist/Teacher. Owner of Sheila Landry Designs (http://www.sheilalandrydesigns.com) Scroll saw, wood working and painting patterns and surfaces. "Knowledge is Power"



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bushmaster

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#1 posted 12-23-2016 02:46 PM

My heart goes out to you over your loss and the second episode with your other cat. The picture of the cat brought back memories of the cat I had as a boy, same color and he would go for walks all over the farm and pant like a dog. A true friend. My wild cat is abit more friendly and want to be petted when I put the food down, leans into my hand when I put it down. Food is still the only way I can get close to it.

-- Brian - Hazelton, British Columbia

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Sheila Landry (scrollgirl)

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#2 posted 12-23-2016 02:49 PM

Thank you, Brian.

Your patience and care will be rewarded. Little by little he is trusting you and I bet that one day he will give himself to you fully. You are a good man. I am sure you made a huge difference in his little life. Thank you for updating me. It made me smile.

Have a wonderful holiday season. ((HUGS))

Sheila

-- Designer/Artist/Teacher. Owner of Sheila Landry Designs (http://www.sheilalandrydesigns.com) Scroll saw, wood working and painting patterns and surfaces. "Knowledge is Power"

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#3 posted 12-23-2016 09:34 PM

Sheila, We understand… With both daughters and two granddaughters here for Christmas, we also have 9 of our furry family (Doxies, Yogi the Corgi, a Chihuahua, and few ‘rescue pups’) all here to celebrate. They are a hoot and all loved. We have lost more than a few over the years, but as you noted, the memories are all sweet.

Tara (2014)

Merry Christmas!
Dale

-- Smitty

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#4 posted 12-23-2016 10:10 PM

Blessings to you and your family.

-- John, British Columbia, Canada

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Sheila Landry (scrollgirl)

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#5 posted 12-23-2016 10:17 PM

Thank you, both Smitty and John. I wish you both all the best in 2017. Thank you for your friendships and advice over the years.

Take care, Sheila

-- Designer/Artist/Teacher. Owner of Sheila Landry Designs (http://www.sheilalandrydesigns.com) Scroll saw, wood working and painting patterns and surfaces. "Knowledge is Power"

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#6 posted 12-23-2016 11:31 PM

Hi Sheila, My 2017 bring you and your wonderful family (Richard included) good health, happiness and fun creative times. Take care
Anna

-- Anna, Richmond BC

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Sheila Landry (scrollgirl)

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#7 posted 12-23-2016 11:32 PM

Merry Christmas to you and Jim. I look forward to seeing your new projects in the upcoming year. ((HUGS))

Sheila

-- Designer/Artist/Teacher. Owner of Sheila Landry Designs (http://www.sheilalandrydesigns.com) Scroll saw, wood working and painting patterns and surfaces. "Knowledge is Power"

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Roger

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#8 posted 12-24-2016 02:20 PM

Wow, sorry to hear about Pancakes. One day at a time. Have to look at that as being better because there is no more hurt/suffering. Wish you and Keith a Merry Christmas and a safe holiday season.

-- Roger from KY. Work/Play/Travel Safe. Keep your dust collector fed. Kentuk55@yahoo.com

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Sheila Landry (scrollgirl)

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#9 posted 12-24-2016 02:32 PM

Thank you, Roger. I know. just because we didn’t see him suffering, doesn’t mean he wasn’t in pain. As I said – looking back I noticed some differences. The vet always says cats are masters at hiding pain. They do this for survival. But even the other two were acting kind of differently toward him in the last couple of months. That is the only comfort I have – that he is no longer hurting. But my heart hurts so much. I miss him so. I will always love my little boy.

Merry Christmas to you and your family. ((HUGS))

Sheila

-- Designer/Artist/Teacher. Owner of Sheila Landry Designs (http://www.sheilalandrydesigns.com) Scroll saw, wood working and painting patterns and surfaces. "Knowledge is Power"

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