Yesterday morning I honestly did have an entire post written. I was just applying the finishing touches and corrections on it when my computer screen went blank. The power was out.
It was a rainy morning here, but nothing like the violent storms I had experienced growing up in Chicago. The rain was soft and relaxing and when I first awoke I could hear some gentle rumbling of thunder in the distance.While the climate here in Nova Scotia is very similar to the one I grew up with living in Chicago, there are some differences. We rarely experience the sound of thunder here (or far less than in Chicago, anyway) and it doesn't get as hot and humid as in the Midwest. So the low rumbling sound of thunder is more noticeable to me, and it always makes me think of 'home'.
In any case, after waiting a couple of minutes to see if the power would return quickly, I kind of figured that it would be a while. While we were fortunate enough that we never lost power through the past brutal winter, with all its ice storms and high winds, it seemed ironic to me that we would fall to a little rumbling and some light, gentle rain.
But we did, and even though I had my first cup of coffee in me already and the second by my side, after trying to read for a bit I felt tired again and laid on the couch to drift off to sleep.
I was awaken a couple hours later from the low 'whirrrrr' of the refrigerator and the 'beep' of the microwave clock as power was restored. All three cats had positioned themselves near or on me, with Pancakes being curled up in my arms like a baby. I didn't even feel them come up there.
When I re-booted my computer, I checked for the nearly-finished blog and of course it was gone. I knew that would be the case, as I rarely do backups of it as I write. It is supposed to be backed up on the server every few minutes, but that feature never seems to work. It is not a big issue, as these kind of blips don't occur often and it isn't really a tragedy if a post gets 'lost'. I choose to fight my battles elsewhere.
Once the blog was gone, I really had no desire to begin writing it again. It was already past 10am, and I needed to get my day started. Besides – when I write, it isn't rehearsed and is more of a stream of consciousness type of writing. I write off the top of my head and it would be a very difficult thing to try to replicate a post without looking forced. So I decided to skip.
I have been going through somewhat of a 'lull' anyway as far as my designing is concerned. After pushing so hard in so many directions over the past couple of months, it seems that I am kind of 'caught up' with everything and all of my deadlines are met.
While many of you may thing this is a good thing, I sit here this morning and I am not so sure. Since I finished the instructions of Layla over the weekend, I have been kind of floundering around, unfocused and sleepy, and I have accomplished little. It feels rather strange.
It isn't that I don't have many ideas in my mind. I have so many that I am finding it hard to pick just one to start. It is a rare occurrence when I have completed ALL of my ongoing projects in all three aspects of my designing – scroll sawing, painting and embroidery – and don't have one thing on the go. Usually I have two if not all three forms of designing to fill these voids. My "A Perfect World" sampler was wonderful for that, as it took over a year to complete and I could always pick it up on a day when my brain needed a rest or I was in between designs.
But these evenings when I am a bit tired to start anything fresh, I pick around on the computer for a bit and I have been turning in early and sleeping fitfully and waking up tired. It is quite unsettling.
I know that all creative people experience these lulls. Just this morning, I saw a thread on one of my painting groups of a girl who was going the same thing. She had a lot to do and wanted to do something, but found herself unmotivated to get started on anything and was in essence, stuck.
I used to panic when this would happen. I would begin to question myself as to if I had 'dried up' with ideas. Even though I had many, it was as if they were shrouded in a dense fog. Try as I may, there was seemingly no way to force it to dissipate quickly. I had to be patient.
And I will. (Be patient, that is.)
Perhaps my head is 're-booting' like my computer needs to every once in a while. Perhaps when it comes back 'online' everything will be organized and make sense and once again allow me to move forward creating a variety of new patterns. Until then, I need to respect the down time and allow it to serve its purpose. Experience tells me it will pass and soon I will be firing on all cylinders in all directions once again. I just have to wait a bit.
In the mean time, Keith put a new pattern up on the site. He created a lovely sectional plaque of the "Pledge of Allegiance" (SLDK456) :
We are planning to do a site update tomorrow, as he also has a new set of three plaques for you all as well. We will be changing our sales too, so if you intended to purchase any of our "Super Sets" that we have discounted, now would be the time to do so. It is a great opportunity to stock up on some of our most popular patterns.
Today is a quiet and overcast day. There is barely a breeze blowing through the trees across the road along the river. I think that the weather much reflects the way I feel. Calm. Serene. Somber.
I am feeling a bit of a spark though as I think about one of my future projects. Sometimes that is all I need to once again get moving. I have some other cutting I need to do today and then I will see where the rest of the day takes me. With all the ideas I am contemplating, I doubt that I will be in this lull for long. Perhaps it is my own body telling me that I needed some down time, as there are many wonderful things to come.
I certainly hope so.
"There is virtue in work and there is virtue in rest. Use both and overlook neither." – Alan Cohen
Have a beautiful Tuesday.
-- Designer/Artist/Teacher. Owner of Sheila Landry Designs (http://www.sheilalandrydesigns.com) Scroll saw, wood working and painting patterns and surfaces. "Knowledge is Power"