I honestly don't know what is with me these days. Last week we were away for five days, and it has taken me almost a full week to catch up with things. I am finally nearing the 'bottom' of my email box and getting everything answered and caught up. Soon I will be able to move forward onto new designs.
I have some ideas as to what I want to do next, but they aren't quite 'there' yet. By that, I mean that I am not quite clear in the direction that I am heading with them and therefore a bit stuck. I know that is part of the process, and I want to give things the time they need to be completely developed (or at least enough to begin drawing them!) but I also know that forcing things along will just be a waste of time, as that never really turns out well for me.
So in the mean time, I do other things . . .
The paperwork I mentioned earlier this week still needs to be posted to my computer. There is still a bit of organizing for me to do around my home here. And then there are the "UFO's" – (the "unfinished objects") that are partially painted and need to be finished up so I can either donate them or give them away. There are always so many.
Looking back on the past week I see I DID accomplish quite a bit. I finished several mail orders for wood surfaces which took me at least a day to cut, sand and pack. We had a beautiful day visiting friends, I sent out a newsletter and updated the web site, and we painted Keith's speakers. I certainly wasn't idle. That on top of the hundreds of emails that awaited me on my return and the laundry and other daily chores that are typically awaiting upon returning from a trip away.
As I sit here writing, I wonder why I feel the need to justify myself when I know there hasn't been a waking moment when I wasn't 'doing something' in the past week. Or several weeks for that matter. Sometimes we can really be hard on ourselves.
Last night I came to the decision that I may 'just coast' for a couple of days. While I usually like to map out my days ahead of time, I am going to give myself the weekend to just see what I can get done and do only what I want to do at the time. Nothing is really pressing at this time, and the loose ends of what I want to accomplish are many. I think I am going to allow myself to pluck on whatever string fancies me at the time and see where it takes me. Perhaps without the self-imposed pressure that I tend to apply to myself, I will actually get something accomplished. Or at least feel that I am doing so.
It sounds good to me. ;)
As you can imagine, being occupied with all that I have been lately hasn't left me with much energy at the end of the day to do my embroidery. When I began the piece in March, I told myself that I would only work on it when I felt good and it wouldn't be another "pressure" that I add to the list of things that I want to do. That would defeat the entire purpose of it and I feel would mar the final results. I want to associate it with being relaxed and having fun and not put a time limit to complete it onto myself. (Although secretly, I gave myself a year!)
After dinner last evening, I decided that I wanted to spend the rest of the night working on it and I realized that it was time to post the progress and completion of another panel – panel 12. So following are the photos for you to see:
Panel 12 is a very colorful section. it was very fun and not difficult at all to do. It began with some cute little English Dasies:
Also included were several bright colors of Freesias. I found them a lot of fun to create. There were buds and full flowers, and while the pattern called for some button stitching along the edges of some of the petals, I liked them loose and left them 'as is'. They do require some stamens in the center, but I am finding that the stamens that I added previously in other flowers and used as antenna for the butterflies and such are becoming loose from the constant handling of the piece during embroidery. I have decided to apply them to the piece closer to when I am completely finished.
There was also a lovely little honeybee that was sampling the freesia. I mentioned many times that this piece is a 'teaching piece' and I can attest that creating the bee was very easy this time. After doing bee wings and dragonfly wings and moth wings, it is becoming second nature to me to create these types of pieces and I barely had to think about doing them. I suppose repetition is a great teacher after all!
The overall panel is very vibrant and colorful. It is one of my favorites so far.
On to panel 13!
I thought I would take a shot of the entire piece so that you can see just how little I have left to do. Five more panels and then the trellis and final detailing! And here it is only AUGUST!
As you can see, I already am working on panel #13. I am getting rather excited, as the finish line is in sight. Although I can honestly say that this has not become tedious in the least. Each section is new and exciting and as I finish each one, I feel a great sense of accomplishment. My only problem is that I feel that I am better now than when I started and I have to fight the urge not to rip out and re-do some of the earlier steps. (I promise I will NOT! There will be other pieces in the future to do and I want this piece to represent my advancement and learning process – mistakes and all.
I don't know where the weekend will take me. I just think that I need some time to find a focus before I can go full steam ahead. I know many of you also go through these 'unsettled' times and the reason I share with you is because I have so many people who ask me how I keep my energy level so high. I believe the answer to that is because I am diverse enough in what I do to always have SOMETHING that will keep me going in a good direction. By listening to your heart and allowing yourself to have lulls, I feel that when the direction is clear and the drive does return, you are then able to move ahead with full force and accomplish a great deal in a small window of time.
I hope you all have a wonderful weekend. Happy Saturday to you all!
-- Designer/Artist/Teacher. Owner of Sheila Landry Designs (http://www.sheilalandrydesigns.com) Scroll saw, wood working and painting patterns and surfaces. "Knowledge is Power"