This week has been rather strange.
I can't quite put my finger on it, but it didn't have the usual 'flow'. It seems that I was fluttering from here to there and while I was accomplishing some things, I don't quite feel that I was as organized as I could be and therefore not as efficient.
My writings here have felt strange as well. I feel as if I have been all over the place work-wise, so reporting to you all each day only exemplifies that I am not in a place where I want to be work wise and makes me wonder what is up.
I don't think these things are bad, but they just aren't always comfortable. Growth and change usually isn't. (At least I HOPE I can attribute it to growth!)
I am sure that part of it is some of the things that are going on in my personal life. As I mentioned before, my dear friend since childhood lost her husband last week. My heart is so heavy for her and I can't get her out of my mind. She and I have been friends since the beginning of high school (that is a LONG time!) and like most people, our lives meander through phases of keeping in touch and not keeping in touch and then catching up again. She is one of those friends that I can not talk to for a year or more, and then when we do talk, it is as if we saw each other yesterday. She has been a part of my life for so long that I can't imagine it without her.
I like places like Facebook because it allows you to keep up with others even if all involved are busy. I love seeing the photos and posts of my friends – both old friends and new ones – and love reading about their busy lives. Especially with me being so far away from Chicago and my own children. It allows me to still be a part of their lives even though I live so far away and everyone is busy. I am very glad to live in a time when communication like that is possible.
But seeing those we love and care about hurting and being so far away still hurts. It is difficult to feel as if we are standing by and watching and not able to do anything but offer a kind word and a cyber-hug. ((((HUG)))) I don't know. As I said – I am all over the place lately.
On the good side, my friend Leldon and his wife welcomed their son into the world. Elijah Wyatt Maxcy was born on May 9th.
He is beautiful and I am so happy for them all. I know Leldon and Sheena will be wonderful parents. And I know Elijah will grow up to be a great woodworker as well! ;)
It is good to see life renewing itself. Seeing new life helps soften the pain of losing someone we care about. It reminds us that life continues on, and that we just don't know what tomorrow will bring our way.
I try to remember that. I really do.
I try to live each day as if it is my last and I also try to live with no regrets. For each day brings what it will and every decision we make and experience we have mold us into the people we are at this moment. I try to think carefully about my actions and live my life in a way that I can be proud of. It doesn't always turn out that way, but I do try. Like anyone, I make mistakes too.
(I told you I am all over the place! ;) )
Today I am somewhat 'caught up' on things for the moment. We updated the site last night and all the new things are there. While I have some deadlines that will be coming very quickly, I may take a day or two to just 'be'. Maybe I will organize some things here in the house. Maybe I will paint or embroider or do some wood cutting. I just don't know what direction I want to go yet.
This morning is the first day in many that the sun is shining brightly. It has been a week of mostly overcast and dreary weather. I would love to get out for a while, but I have to see if it is possible because with the warmth of spring comes the dreaded black flies that I am so allergic to. The other day I was bitten twice and have two large, itchy lumps on the top of my head where they bit me. I find it ironic that it is finally warm enough to enjoy the outside and I can't because of these tiny beasts. They usually come and go quickly though and hopefully their time will pass and they will be gone soon. Mother Nature can be a trickster.
I wish you all a wonderful weekend. We have a long weekend here in Canada, celebrating "Victoria Day" on Monday. Perhaps between now and then I will make a trip to the beach. I think it would do me good.
Have a beautiful Friday.
The true harvest of my daily life is somewhat as intangible and indescribable as the tints of morning or evening. It is a little star dust caught, a segment of the rainbow which I have clutched. ~Henry David Thoreau, Walden
-- Designer/Artist/Teacher. Owner of Sheila Landry Designs (http://www.sheilalandrydesigns.com) Scroll saw, wood working and painting patterns and surfaces. "Knowledge is Power"