After taking a couple of days off from writing, I find it is time to get back to it. I was feeling a bit poorly this past weekend and I didn’t accomplish a great deal. I don’t get sick often, and I can’t even say if this was something that I would refer to ‘illness’ or perhaps it was just being tired. I have been going in a lot of directions at once lately and I needed to get a handle on things. I didn’t think writing about them would be interesting to many of you, so I skipped.
Yesterday I was feeling a bit better, but spent the day doing paperwork and taxes. Try as I may, I never quite seem to keep up with them throughout the year. I have all the receipts and numbers that I need, but ideally I would be taking a couple of hours per month to post them in my ledger. That usually happens until about May, when the horror from the previous year wears off. Every year I vow to keep it current, and every year I fail. Then the following March comes along and I have several months of receipts to post, which I can honestly say I dread doing.
I finally have a good system set up though, and after a while of posting, it isn’t so tedious. I actually begin to LIKE seeing what the numbers are telling me and find it very interesting. I think this happens every year though, which is why I have the urge to continue and post both January and February of this year to get “a good start” for next year. I see a pattern forming here, as I always begin the next year like this and for some reason it loses its enchantment and by May or so I am back to stuffing receipts in an envelope and waiting until I “have some time” to post them. As the pile grows, the task looks more and more intimidating and by autumn I abandon it altogether, figuring I would do it all at once in March, as usual. (Creating things is so much more fun!)
Now that it is behind me for the last year however, I am thinking to myself “that wasn’t so bad!” and I am contemplating posting the receipts from the first two months of this year to stay on top of things. (I am on a roll!) The realistic part of me KNOWS that this will only last a few months (as per tradition . . . ) and by August I will be looking at an envelope of several months of receipts. No matter how good my intentions are, this has always been the case. I have no reason to believe it will play out any other way.
This is the perfect example of a “self-fulfilling prophecy.”
Perhaps though, I will be able to break the cycle this year and turn over a new leaf. After all, I am always the one that is telling you all that “we are our own destiny.” I truly believe that. We alone have the power to change our lives for the better, or we can be passive and allow things to change around us. It is our choice.
The funny part about a situation such as my bookkeeping one described here is that there actually comes a point when I ‘give up’ and figure “I’ll get it done in the end.” Perhaps it happens because there is not really a negative consequence attached to doing my receipts all at once as I do them other than the inconvenience of a day or so to post them. All the information is there and it all gets to the accountant on time so it isn’t as if I am flubbing things up with anyone but myself. Perhaps the discomfort that I feel prior to tackling the task is not great enough for me to change my behavior. As I said – by this point, I am actually somewhat enjoying doing it, so it isn’t really too bad.
Funny how my mind works . . .
But I still think that it would be much better if I were to spread this enjoyment over the course of the year, and not wait until March to get things in order. I must admit that as I am stuffing receipts into the designated folder each time I clean my purse, there is that momentary anxiety as I see the growing pile of the task that will await me when d-day finally arrives. But as soon as I close the cabinet that contains the folder, I am able to erase the thought from my brain until a few more weeks follow and I preform the same task again. And the cycle continues. . .
My projects have been on hold these couple of days, and I will resume writing the pattern packets later on today. We are still planning a site update for Wednesday or Thursday, and the new items will be available at that time. I was able to finish painting the little animal basket in the second style – this one a gingerbread theme – which will also be included in the pattern. I think it came out cute.
When I am done with the pattern for this and the update, I will be working on my new projects for the magazine, including the ones that use the embossed paper. It will all go back to normal.
We all have ideas and things that we don’t follow through with. I think that is part of being human. I think the important thing to do is to prioritize what NEEDS to be done and go from there. Sometimes there just aren’t enough hours in the day to do everything. We just need to try our best.
Have a wonderful Tuesday! :)
-- Designer/Artist/Teacher. Owner of Sheila Landry Designs (http://www.sheilalandrydesigns.com) Scroll saw, wood working and painting patterns and surfaces. "Knowledge is Power"