As I awoke today, a faint light already began illuminating the early morning sky. At first I was somewhat aggravated at myself, for I have a great deal to accomplish today and I had planned to get an early start. It has been several months since I had daylight when I first arose, but as I looked at the clock and saw that it wasn’t as late as I expected, I relaxed. The seasons are changing and spring is definitely on its way.
Now it is nearly 8 am and daylight is fully upon us. It is a mostly grey and cloudy day, with the sun peeking out from time to time to remind me that it is there. I look across the road and the tall trees that line the river bank are blowing steadily. There are remnants of snow piles here and there, but for the most part the ground is muddy and the grass is a dull grey/green. As a painter, I notice these colors a bit more I think. It’s a far cry from the vibrant colors of late spring and summer. The term “murky” comes to mind, as the palette reminds me of pictures you would see of the bottom of a pond.
The other day when I was out, I thought it would be nice to go for a walk in the woods. This year, Keith and I haven’t really taken the time to walk much. We used to walk on the days between our visits to the gym. But things have just been too busy.
Resolutions . . . resolutions . . .
I don’t like making them because for the most part, I have a hard time sticking with them and as a result, it feels as if I failed at something. But if I don’t keep trying then there is no real chance for improvement, is there?
I think the best solution sometimes is to just get up and do whatever you want to accomplish. While planning is good in some cases, I think in others it can just slow things down and feed into the procrastination process and perhaps delay things until something more fun or interesting comes along. And then the original idea gets lost. So maybe I need to just ‘go’ instead of ‘planning to go’ and let the chips fall where they may. We’ll see . . .
My! I am contemplative this morning! I wonder what brings these moods on? Perhaps it is because as I look out on the mess that is typical of early spring, I have a hard time understanding why people enjoy the season so much. I think it is probably because they are looking ahead to summer and all that it brings. While I love the winter and the crisp cold air (yes – I do!) I find the muddy, dull mess of spring to be quite ugly. I think I need to close my eyes to the present, throw myself into work, and look ahead as well.
Work has been incredibly busy. I find myself feeling a bit anxious these days with so much on my plate. We are going to be working on a large wholesale order for Artist’s Club for the next few days, which means that everything else will be somewhat on hold. It would be wonderful to be able to be doing two things at once, but it isn’t possible unfortunately.
I finished up several orders for wood pieces that came in since the update and they all went out the door yesterday. It felt good to send everything off, and I like that part of the business. I am a bit behind in my paperwork though and as our business grows, I am finding that I need to spend more time on that than I have in the past. Since that is one of my least favorite parts of the job, I find myself always putting it off until I have no choice but to do it. I must say that is one of my weakest traits. Sometimes other mention how they admire my wonderful ability to stay organized, but if they saw my pile of papers right now, I think they would realize that I am NOT that person when it comes to that part of life. (NO! I won’t show you!) We all have our Achilles’ heel and that certainly is mine. But I am getting to the point where I NEED to do things, so if I drop off the computer for a few days, know that I am doing what I should be doing and not ill or gallivanting around or anything. I’ll be back. And when I do return then I expect my mood will be much lighter.
So I really don’t have a lot to share with you all today, other than I am perhaps feeling a bit overwhelmed. I enjoy blogging every day, but it is days like today when I feel I am being a boor that I skip every now and then. Perhaps I should have skipped today . . .
I do have one good piece of news . . . I spoke to my editor yesterday and I got a green light for the new ideas that I alluded to yesterday. I am so thrilled that she liked it and she seemed as excited as I was, and it is going to be fun and wonderful to see these ideas come to be. While I truly loved my past editor, this past year working with Debbie has been absolutely thrilling. She really embraces my new and crazy ideas and encourages me to continue to develop them. And the response from our readers has been very strong and positive. Win/win for everyone!
On that note, I will close out for today. I did want to share something wonderful with you all though.
For many years, my friend Diana was someone who had struggled with painting. She always said she admired my painted projects, but insisted that she butchered them when she tried to paint.
In the past several months, Diana has tried again to do some painting. She joined a page of painters on Facebook and took on painting with a vengeance. Lately, she has shown some of the photos of the paintings she has done and I am thrilled and amazed at her progress. Here are a couple of examples:
I am so proud and thrilled to see her do so well. I am showing these here to prove my point – attitude is everything.
It seemed to me that when Diana kept telling everyone that she couldn’t paint, she was unable to do so. (Of course not! In her own mind, she already failed!)
But as soon as she changed her attitude and decided that she was going to at least give it a TRY, wonderful things began to happen. As she tried harder and told herself that she WOULD accomplish this, she DID begin to learn and her skills began to develop. With each small victory came a bit of confidence to take another step further. Soon she found herself tackling more and more projects, each one coming out better than the last. The expectation of failure was soon overcome by the the confidence that the successes brought. And now look at the result. She is enjoying herself and truly is an accomplished “painter.”
This can be a lesson that you embrace for yourself. Not only for painting, but for ANYTHING that you want to do. If you keep telling yourself that you will fail at something, by goodness you probably will! I hope you all look upon Diana as an inspiration as I have, as she is the perfect example of how our attitude can dictate the outcome of just about any situation. We ARE our own destiny, as I have said many times before. We have more power than we will ever realize over our own lives.
Who knows? Maybe if I take my own advice, I will be wonderful at paperwork yet. ;)
Have a wonderful Tuesday!
-- Designer/Artist/Teacher. Owner of Sheila Landry Designs (http://www.sheilalandrydesigns.com) Scroll saw, wood working and painting patterns and surfaces. "Knowledge is Power"