Yesterday was a rather odd day for me. I found myself finishing up one project and kind of picking around with the next. I was a bit tired and achy (which is NOT typical for me!) and I was wondering if I was coming down with something.
I have been running pretty hard lately. My mind has been a bit overloaded with various ideas for different projects in different directions. I have found myself not sleeping very well because I was spending the night designing – my thoughts running wildly instead of allowing me to rest and sleep. As a result, I awoke feeling a bit tired and not rested. I am afraid to say that it wasn’t a very productive day.
Those of you who read often know that this rarely happens to me. I am usually pretty organized and over the years I have learned to pace myself so that I accomplish the most I can in a day without feeling ‘burned out’. But lately I have had an explosion of new ideas that I want to implement and I don’t think I have allowed myself enough time to stop and rest and rejuvenate. I am afraid that I am feeling the results of that neglect.
It is hard some days not to feel overwhelmed.
I can’t tell if this is a good thing or bad. Common sense tells me it is good, as my “idea bank” is extremely full. As someone who relies on new ideas and designs to survive, I know that having all of these new ideas is truly welcome. It means that I will be working for a long time to come.
What isn’t great is when those feelings of anxiety begin to creep in. I feel that nothing kills creativity quicker than anxiety. For me anyway, there is a very fine line sometimes between creativity and being overwhelmed. It is up to me to channel these ideas and keep them organized so that they don’t get the best of me. While multi-tasking is something I have learned to master on some levels, there are times when I find it can be very easy to slip into chaos when attempting to do things in too many directions at once. Perhaps this ‘tiredness’ I am feeling is a sign to reel things in and slow down for a short time and regroup. I believe that may be the case.
I think I will take the day to do just that.
I am on top of my deadlines and it is a good time to take some time to reorganize. There are things here in my house that need attention (just general straightening) and I need to take some time to cook and maybe make some comfort foods – a nice pot of soup or some home made sweet rolls. Perhaps I will take the time to make a long-overdue phone call to a friend. I think maybe a little self-indulgence is needed.
I often get notes and comments from you how you admire my ability to stay so organized and constantly remain driven. I am not from the school of thought that believes that a cluttered environment means that one is busy and productive. To me, clutter is distracting and counterproductive. I realize that we are all different in our modes of creating, but for me having chaos around me is a definite ‘buzz kill’ and stops me in my tracks. I have trouble allowing my ideas to flow when I am side stepping clutter. I know this isn’t true for everyone, but it is for me. It is just my way.
I may miss a day or two with posting. Rest assured, I am fine. I just don’t feel that you all need a play-by-play of my reorganization process, or that it will be remotely interesting to you. If I do think of something significant to share, I will certainly do so. But by publicly declaring that I may not be posting for a day or two, I am already setting the process in motion. I feel better already. :)
It is a warm, grey day here in Nova Scotia. Already this morning, I can tell that we will see little sun. I am not one believes that I need the sun shining to feel good, as these somber winter days are quiet and peaceful – something that feels calming to me.
I am happy that I have come to recognize when it is time to take a breath. For I know that by ignoring the signs will only result in further anxiety and perhaps even illness. We tend to get colds and flues more when we are run down, and I feel that one reason I am rarely ill is because I have learned to listen to my body and do what is necessary to keep myself healthy. If it means stepping back for a short time, so be it. Usually the results of doing so is that when I return, I accomplish more than ever. It is a good investment to make.
I wish you all a wonderful weekend.
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