There are days we accomplish a great deal and days where . . . well . . . we don’t seem to accomplish much. I often write of the days when I have been able to check a number of things off of my list of things to do. Most of the time that is the case, and I feel like I pushed the pile a decent amount in a good direction. But the past several days it seems that ‘life’ has just gotten in the way of getting things done and I haven’t seen much progress.
I realize that there probably isn’t anything wrong with this. After all, we can’t work all the time. But I think that I am especially aware of it now because we are at a transition in the business and when things are unsure it seems that days like the past few that I have been having are magnified and more apparent. Perhaps it is the insecurity that I am feeling these past few weeks in our future. I don’t mind telling you all that it is scary.
This morning time of writing allows me to really be aware and evaluate things. These first two hours of the day that I spend sharing my thoughts with all of you is good for me because it forces me to really look at what I accomplished the previous day and plan ahead for my future. I had heard for many years that keeping a journal was beneficial in many respects, and after over two years of doing so, I see the many benefits.
It rarely seems to be a burden to me, but on some days when I am a bit stuck, it is harder to write than others. By the mere exercise of writing though, it helps me sort things out and hopefully point myself into a productive direction or give me a focus when I am feeling unsure.
With the recent holiday (Canada’s Thanksgiving) there were a few hiccups in our routine. This is good for us once in a while, as it keeps us from becoming boring and stagnant. Yesterday, we had an unexpected guest, as a friend of Keith’s that he hadn’t seen in years stopped by for the afternoon to catch up. It was a good visit, and a lengthy one. It did make me realize how isolated we have become on some levels. While we realize that being self-employed involved a great amount of dedication to the business, it is sometimes difficult to find a balance between that and enjoying life. I suppose that is an age-old issue.
I spent much of the day preparing a project for an exchange that I am participating in. It is from a painting forum that I like called “Tole Town” which is focused on decorative painting. I enjoy doing exchanges, as I truly enjoy receiving hand-made art from others. Besides – it gives me an excuse to make something completely frivolous and send it to a new home to hopefully be appreciated. For me, it is a change of pace and something that I look forward to doing.
I also worked on a template for the new patterns we are making. I rewrote the main instructions into the InDesign program so that we would have a basic template to work from in making future patterns. This would make formatting the new designs much easier for reasons that I discussed previously, and make our patterns look more consistent.
I did these things in the background, while Keith was visiting. While it was his friend and company, I didn’t want to appear rude by burying myself in work when someone was here. Yet I wanted to let them catch up too. I suppose it was one of those rare times when our place did seem a bit small.
By dinner time, I felt really tired. I think that the past several weeks were catching up to me. I chose to take it slow for the evening and made myself a cup of black cherry tea (the first time I had it – it was really good!) and curled up with the blanket and a cat and just took it easy for the rest of the night. There was no sense in starting something new when I felt so deflated.
Today is a new day. I have in my mind a list of what I wish to accomplish. For the time being, there are no outside obligations so I should be able to concentrate on things and get back to a productive state again. At least I hope so.
I often speak (write) of the importance of having clear goals. I do believe that it is imperative to have clear ideas and objectives in order to really accomplish things. While I do have several goals in mind, they are not quite as clear as I wish they could be. There are many unknown factors and the vagueness of that somewhat bothers me. I am seeing first hand how it can be detrimental.
But these things take time, and I think that my being aware of this in itself is a good thing, as I will work to sharpen things up a bit and get a clear picture in my mind of what I wish to achieve. Then perhaps I will be able to pursue that path with confidence.
It is all part of the process. We need to accept it for what it is and allow it to run its course. And look forward to better days ahead.
I wish you all a focused and productive day.
-- Designer/Artist/Teacher. Owner of Sheila Landry Designs (http://www.sheilalandrydesigns.com) Scroll saw, wood working and painting patterns and surfaces. "Knowledge is Power"