I think that I am feeling a bit overwhelmed. There is so much that I want to accomplish and the days just keep slipping by. It isn’t that I don’t accomplish anything, but it somehow doesn’t feel like it is enough because the list of things I didn’t get done somehow always seems longer (and is growing!) And that is not good.
There has been a great deal going on lately. Besides what I write about here, there are other things that are happening in my life that I do not write about. It is a busy time.
Normally I am one who thrives well on deadlines. But as I look at the calendar today and see that we are nearly done with September, it is a clear reality that the days are passing much too quickly. I need to slow down and take a breath and take it all in for a bit or before I know it, time will slip by.
As a small business in a poor economy, it is not an easy road. Especially when the business is centered on what most would consider a ‘non-necessity’. Many would think that I am foolish to continue to pursue such a volatile vocation in such troubled times. Perhaps they are right. But I never expected things to be easy. Lately I am happy with the thought that what we are doing is ‘not impossible.’ So I continue to try.
There are several choices that we have right now. Several ways to make a go of things. I think that sometimes the problem that I have is deciding which direction(s) to take and knowing when being ‘diversified’ crosses the line into ‘over-extending’ ourselves. It isn’t always clear.
I have always felt that the extra hours that I put into work are well worth it. After all, I am doing something I love. How many people can say that about their jobs? Yet when so many important decisions are upon us that will affect the future of our business, it becomes quite stressful. How can we know for certain that we are choosing the right one and not leaving a better one behind?
I realize that is impossible.
I am fortunate in that I am recognizing that this is happening, for that will help me deal with things in the best way possible. After all, if I didn’t see it, then I wouldn’t be able to intervene for myself, and who knows what would happen then.
So I am keeping things short today and I am going to regroup. I think it is time that I need to take a step or two back and count to ten (or twenty, or fifty). I am going to take some time for myself, in the midst of all this chaos and try to let go and not worry about anything. What will be will be.
It is windy and rainy outside today. It is supposed to be that way tomorrow, too. It is a good day to stay in and tidy up the house. Or bake. Or watch a movie. Or do nothing in particular unless I really feel that I want to. Either I need to turn down the heat or the water will boil over.
I want to enjoy my life. This is my favorite time of year, and I feel that if I keep going at the pace I have been, I won’t even have the time to take pleasure in it. Sometimes it is difficult to tell the difference between work and play. That can be a double-edged sword.
I may or may not write tomorrow. I am not sure yet. I only mention that so that if I choose to skip a day, you all won’t be worried. I think a day or two of not worrying about my commitments will do me wonders. It will give me time to clear my head and pull in the reigns and get things back to manageable again. And I am certain that I will come out of it feeling much better.
Have a wonderful weekend!
-- Designer/Artist/Teacher. Owner of Sheila Landry Designs (http://www.sheilalandrydesigns.com) Scroll saw, wood working and painting patterns and surfaces. "Knowledge is Power"