Some days, I am not ambitious at all. Fortunately for me, it isn’t very often. Even though my head is full of ideas, I just didn’t feel like working on anything job-related yesterday. I just don’t know.
Those of you who read and know me realize that this isn’t my normal attitude to just ‘do nothing.’ Usually I am in several directions, wondering which direction I should start first. But for some reason, yesterday the fire just wasn’t there.
It isn’t as if I sat and did nothing all day. As a matter of fact, it was quite the contrary. There were lots of things to accomplish around the house here and I also needed to run some errands that took up much of the day. I pulled out my cool weather clothes. I did some housework. I made a pizza for dinner. By the time that I finished all of these things, it was nearly 7pm and I just wasn’t in the mood to start anything new or to work. So I did some reading here at Lumberjocks and picked around on the computer and for the most part did nothing.
Part of me felt a bit guilty for this behavior. After all, I am frequently saying that there aren’t enough hours in the day to finish everything that I want. But there was a bigger part of me inside that was not only not guilty, but actually proud of myself for taking this time to do what I wanted. Somehow I felt that I needed this.
In general, I think I push myself pretty hard. I set a goal and I try my best to accomplish it. If I don’t, it is usually because some other job-related issue arose that took its place. I like being that way, and I am proud of my work ethic.
But I have felt a little overwhelmed lately. I am not certain why, but there are just lots of things that are pulling me in several directions at once and I feel the need to slow down a bit an take a breath. In the past, when I haven’t listened to myself and continued at the pace despite these feelings, I sometimes would bottom out and go through a phase where I didn’t accomplish anything.
Sometimes taking a day or two to regroup and take a breath is the best answer.
I have a wedding to attend this afternoon followed by a dinner this evening. I don’t know how much I will get done today either. Tomorrow is set in my mind as a ‘painting day’ and I plan on spending it doing some painting. After yesterday, I toyed with the idea that I would not allow myself that luxury, given my low output these past few days, but I don’t really want to do that. It would be as if I am punishing myself for taking a breath, and that isn’t how I want to live my life.
So I will see what the day brings.
Doing nothing is really doing something after all. It is giving ourselves time to regroup and relax and enjoy our lives to the fullest. When I hear of my hard-working creative friends taking time for themselves, I cheer for them. I admire them for valuing themselves enough to take care of themselves and I see how it makes them even more creative and happier.
Now I think it is my turn. :)
Have a wonderful day!
Don’t underestimate the value of Doing Nothing, of just going along, listening to all the things you can’t hear, and not bothering. ~Pooh’s Little Instruction Book, inspired by A.A. Milne
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