Well, I am still finishing up some things on that skating pond pattern. I know, I know! You are probably all quite tired of hearing about it. Imagine what I am feeling with working on it so long!
I made the stands for the figures yesterday and did a final going over of all the paint. I did any necessary touch ups and applied several coats of clear matte spray over them. They do look nice.
I went to pick up the mail, and there in my mailbox was the current catalog from the Artists Club. In looking through it and all its cute and fun painting ideas, I couldn’t help but think that in a couple of months I will see my own work in there. Why does it terrify me so?
I truly don’t get it. I have been working with Creative Woodworks for about 15 years now. I have had hundreds of project published not only with them, but with a handful of other publications also. I am not understanding why this is so different.
In trying to think this through, I am thinking that it is a combination of things that make me feel this way. I don’t think it is all because I lack self-confidence. I do like this project or I wouldn’t have sought so hard to get it out there so people could see it. Perhaps it is because I look at all the names of the “famous” painting pattern designers who are represented in that catalog – many with whom I have learned to paint by using their patterns – and I am a bit star struck to be in their company. Another thing that may be contributing to the anxiety that I feel is all the prior obstacles that I have had with this project over the last year and a half. It has been a series of ups and downs and there is a small part inside of me that is a bit a afraid to get my hopes up about it. I suppose it is a defense mechanism on my part.
Part of me feels that if mistakes are made, it will ruin my chances to have future projects considered by this company. I really like this part of my work and want to continue in this direction too. Another part of me feels that I DID cover the bases and I am giving them a complete package that hopefully the public will enjoy. I can spend a month thinking of the pros and cons I suppose.
Yesterday when I was going over the final check of the pieces, I noticed that I didn’t paint the side of the upper arm of one of the skaters. What the heck is that and how did I miss it? When you paint figures like this, you typically wrap the color around so that the sides match the front of the piece, and here I not only base coated the piece, but all the shading and finishing painting was done and the one area had raw wood looking out at me. YIKES! What’s that all about?
It was easy enough to fix, mind you, but had I not been so paranoid and re-checked everything, it may have gotten by me. It made me go over everything once again and make sure everything was just so.
I then cut the smaller pond out and was ready to finish it, but in looking at it, I decided that it wasn’t big enough. I initially wanted it to fit in an envelope that would fit a normal size piece of paper, but it just seemed too small and crowded. I wound up re-cutting it and it will be slightly bigger. Then I thought about it and wondered again why I was so set on that size. Envelopes come in all sizes and it shouldn’t be a problem to find packaging that fits. I think I just have to relax.
The packet will be written and finished up by today. I want to take a final set of pictures too before I glue the pieces to the stands. At least making the stands went smoothly and without incident. :)
I apologize for going on about this project. As you can see, it has kind of consumed me for some strange reason. In many ways, it is one of the most difficult things that I have accomplished. I feel as if I have never been published before and it reminds me of when I just started out.
Perhaps it is a good thing to go through this. In order to grow as a designer and an artist, we all need to get out of our comfort zone and try something new. I am certainly out of my comfort zone here and it has reminded me of what the many others who are submitting for the first time must feel. It is quite a reality check.
But I am ‘almost there’. The box WILL go out on Monday and I will get on with new and exciting designs and the world will be good again. Once it is on its way, it will be out of my hands and I will let what will happen, happen. It does anyway. Whether the project fails or succeeds, at least I will know in my heart that I gave it my best shot. And isn’t that all that any of us could do? The rest will be up to fate.
Have a great day everyone.
-- Designer/Artist/Teacher. Owner of Sheila Landry Designs (http://www.sheilalandrydesigns.com) Scroll saw, wood working and painting patterns and surfaces. "Knowledge is Power"