Last night was one of those nights where I was lying in bed and my legs were aching and I thought either I am really getting old or it is going to snow again.
I woke up to a fresh white blanket that is still coming down as I write and I feel a little better about it. Oh, I realize that I am still getting old, but at least now I can convince myself that I’m not that old. My legs are like built-in barometers and I could always tell when the weather was about to change. This has occurred from the time I was a young teenager, so I can’t really attribute it to age. Maybe I just notice it more.
Just saying . . .
Yesterday was what I consider a ‘slow’ day. I talked to a couple of customers, got some nice orders and did research most of the day. I drew up the base to my next candle tray (a music themed one) and I even spent the evening watching the Grammys, which I thoroughly enjoyed. (I know the Grammys were on Sunday, but I don’t have real TV and need to wait until the next day to see the program on the internet. That’s OK though, because I didn’t have time to see who won so it was all just as much a surprise to me as anyone else on Sunday.)
In reading back, it does look like I accomplished quite a bit. I am not sure why I don’t feel like I did all that much. Perhaps I am not used to the calm rhythm that my life has taken these past several months. I would like to get used to it though, because it is rather nice. It seems sometimes that we spend our lives putting out fires so that we can live in an organized and peaceful existence and when we finally make it to that point, we don’t know what to do with ourselves.
It reminds me of a movie I saw when I was quite young. It was called “The Candidate” and starred Robert Redford. It is about a young politician’s struggle to be elected to the senate and at the end of the movie, after he wins the election, he turns to his adviser and says “what do we do now?”
It isn’t that I have nothing to do. If I sit here an think about things for about twenty seconds, I am sure I can come up with about fifty things that need to be worked on. I suppose that it is because nothing is screaming in my face at the moment and I am not quite used to that. I live by deadlines and they are a strong driving force in my existence. There seems to be a small voice in the back of my mind that is telling me that if no one is screaming at me for something, then I am not working hard enough.
Now I know that is a kind of convoluted way of thinking about it and I also know that it isn’t particularly true, but it is just one of those things that I thought I would share with you. Perhaps knowing it is there and recognizing it somehow makes it not so bad.
It gets me to thinking though . . . is there ever really a way to achieve balance when running your own business?
It seems that those who are able to achieve success in self-employment are the people who are constantly driven by their passion and their work. Continued success doesn’t rely on taking time off and enjoying it, it feeds every day on hard work and determination. When I look at people that I consider successful, I see that it is just their nature to be driven and focused all the time. It is just the nature of the beast.
So wanting to be successful and also find a balance between success and enjoying success can be tricky. I suppose if the answer was that easy, everyone would be doing it. It is something to think about anyway.
In a way, having a thriving business is much like a fighter jet in flight. Either it is going or it is not. There is no slow and easy speed that you can fly that plane and take in all the scenery along the way. You need to seize opportunities when they present themselves and be grateful for them. Otherwise you will be left on the runway, watching the other planes fly by.
I suppose that it is too early for me to think of slowing down. The memories of struggling so hard as still so close that when things aren’t going at top speed, I get an uneasy feeling. Besides, I still haven’t even made it half way up the hill, so I am certainly not ready to slow my momentum down yet. There is so much to do and accomplish ahead of me and I look forward to every aspect.
For today, I want to finish drawing that next design that I started yesterday. My partner already made the smaller companion candle trays to the musical themed one that I am working on, and they look really nice. They have been a great inspiration for me to get mine done. I also wish to work on the other painting design that I have been thinking about. I feel that I am almost ready to proceed with it and put pen to paper (or pen mouse to computer screen, if you will) and get some concrete drawing done on it. And it is time to back up my computer again.
So apparently I have a lot to do. It is just a matter of getting these things done. By that time, I am sure that something else will come my way and scream for my attention.
At least I hope so. :)
Enjoy your Tuesday.
-- Designer/Artist/Teacher. Owner of Sheila Landry Designs (http://www.sheilalandrydesigns.com) Scroll saw, wood working and painting patterns and surfaces. "Knowledge is Power"