Good evening Lumberjocks,
This week has been a slow one for me with operation X hitting a few snags (financially mainly) I didn’t have much to do but sit in my shop and mope about not going any further, and after a very discouraging week at work due to my supervisor getting an attitude with me because I asked for help because my knee was hurting and my partner called off he scolded me stating bluntly he did not care and I wasn’t getting any help and that I needed to get a car and forget about starting my business because I didn’t have the capital to start my business( quote unquote like he wanted to, but abandoned his idea to work for our company)Back to the shop anyway, today I was sitting in my shop contemplating weather he was right or not (discouragement is quite powerful at times) The local Jazz & R&B station played an old Michael Jackson song called The man in the mirror the lyrics rang true to the situation as part of the the song went along like this ( if you wanna make the world a better place you gotta look at yourself then make the change gotta get it right while you got time because if you ruin your heart you will lose your mind). I have been looking at the problems plaguing me instead of finding solutions, and letting the wrong people influence me. First thing is to find a different job in order to get my life back to normal, second is to finally get profit rolling in my business, third is to make sure to enjoy my life as I have not had for the past year and a half. The song helped but after setting and thinking about the sacrifices some of my friends both locally and online have made personally and professionally both Quitting would be a slap in the face and also would not reflect my true nature of not accepting mediocrity BTW tell me most of the time I can’t well I will do it then look at you and say now what! Next week getting lumber hopefully will keep me busy enough so I can’t get in this state of mind again.
-- Proverbs Ch:3 vs 5,6,7 Trust in the lord with all thine heart and lean not unto your own understanding but in all your ways aknowledge him and he shall direct your path email@example.com