Posted on long life ending and my dad
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#1 posted 971 days ago |
Today I chopped split logs, then took a walk in my woods, shed a few tears for a relationship I wish I could have had. Dreams of a past never had, dreams of a past with my dad. Of course I thank you all for the words and insight. Yes I am close in distance, about 4 hours and go often to visit, I think I will go again tomorrow for a few days. I wish I had the faith that some of you have but that is not what I was given. I was given a mind that questions “… with boldness even the existence of God; because, if there be one, he must more approve of the homage of reason than that of blindfolded fear”. Not that any of you believe due to fear, I just love T Jefferson and his view on the world. I had a dream once in which I had to kill myself (shot gun to the head) due to Zombie invasion, no escape left and I sure was not going to become a zombie :) The one thing that stands out most was my thoughts, just before I pulled the trigger (I can still remember the taste of the barrel in my mouth), was at least I will find out what is on the other side of life. I awoke as the back of my head came off. Gezz that was 30 years ago, still creeps me out :) Ok so I got a little side tracked there. Life is short and I am not, I’ll go visit tomorrow. See you all see. thanks again -- "so much to learn and so little time".. |
