For the past 6 months I have been suffering for clinical depression. Those who have experienced this situation understand what I have been going through. I had no desire to do anything. I just sat in front of the TV and stared at it without caring what was on. I had a loss of appetite, did not go to the shop, took no pleasure anything. But for my DARLING WIFE I don’t know where I would have ended. With her understanding and my acceptance of the condition I am getting through (with the help of drugs).
So to the happy days part. I am taking a break from working in my shop for four continuous hours. After some lunch I am on my way back out there.
If you know of anyone that is suffering from depression (yes you suffer) work with them and give all the encouragement you can. Love of family has been my biggest and most powerful medicine.
OK, shutting up and finishing sandwich and back to the shop.
-- Bill - If I knew GRANDKIDS were so much fun I would have had them first.






















22 comments so far
CessnaPilotBarry
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posted 160 days ago
That’s great news!
Work safe!
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Craftsman on the lake
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posted 160 days ago
Brother in law has had the same thing but for a lifetime. Meds keep him on keel most of the time. It’s no joke and for real. Possibly one of the worst afflictions anyone can have. Good for you. I hope your meds keep you in sawdust.
-- The smell of wood, coffee in the cup, the wife let's me do my thing, the lake is peaceful. http://web.me.com/deceiver6/Deceiver/Craftsman_on_the_lake/Craftsman_on_the_lake.html
Kent Shepherd
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posted 160 days ago
Glad to hear you’re back in the shop. I can’t think of better therapy.
Hang in there. Our prayers are with you.
PS. Your tag is right about grandkids
-- Kent Shepherd * The goal is-----More Tools!
SCOTSMAN
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posted 160 days ago
Sometimes those who suffer depression would agree to have themselves lose a limb if it meant they got to be back to normal. It’s so severely debilitating sorry to hear about this I will pray for you remember there are always people worse than us.Alistair
-- excuse my typing as I have a form of parkinsons disease
lew
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posted 160 days ago
Been there, done that- Welcome Back!!
Durnik150
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posted 160 days ago
bhack, wow! I have been through and continue to fight depression. The big step to admit that a medicine might actually help is one of the biggest steps. I ended up trying 3 different medications before finding something that was a good balance for me. Don’t give up. Keep the lines of communication open with your Dr. and keep talking with your wonderful wife. She sounds very similar to my wife in that she will stick with you even though it’s tough to even exist at times. When the fog begins to rise, take her out for a fun evening or a short vacation. This is as much to celebrate your recovery as to let her see that her efforts have not been in vain.
Best wishes always.
-- Behind the Bark is a lot of Heartwood----Charles, Centennial, CO
BarryW
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posted 160 days ago
I’ve had some level of untreated depression for a long time…but some of my depression is definitely situational in nature. But things are changing here as well. I wish you well…and work is the best medicine…it gets your mind off your mind.
-- /\/\/\ BarryW /\/\/\ Stay so busy you don't have time to die.
trucker12349
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posted 160 days ago
bhack, Have the same problem along with bipolar and since I have found this group here, I have gotten back into woodworking and have been dealing with these problems. These people here are the best medicine I have found in a long time. Keep up the good fight, you have a lot of allies here to help if needed.
MyFathersSon
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posted 160 days ago
Having been on both sides of that situation (both as one caring dearly for a sufferer—and as a sufferer myself) my prayers and blessings and admiration go out to both you and your wife.
Just keep putting one foot in front of the other—-
Or = Like the song says—-
If you’re going through hell —just keep on going —
You might get out before the devil even knows you’re there.
-- Those who insist it can't be done - should politely refrain from interrupting those who are doing it.
Rustic
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posted 160 days ago
Glad to hear that you are back in the shop. I was suffering from a little bit of depression due to a loss of work. But now I am back in the swing of things. Just got a booth at a craft mall. That should help keep my mind off the negative. If you need an ear we are here for you.
-- There is no such thing as a mistake. Its called a design modification Rick Kruse, Grand Rapids, MI
John Gray
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posted 160 days ago
Been there done that….on the meds now and doing great.
IT’S SO GOOD TO HEAD YOU ARE BACK!!!!!!
-- Only the Shadow knows....................
a1Jim
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posted 160 days ago
Hey Bill
I’m glad things are looking up. when I get bogged down with my “whatever” I try to spend some time thinking about how many things I have to be grateful for , I live in a free country without ,war, famine, drought ,
or disasters, I have wonderful family that loves me topping the list a most loving wife of 42 years. the more you think about it the more you can find to be positive about.
-- Jim from Heirloom Woodshop Southern Oregon
miles125
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posted 160 days ago
Not to make light of your situation, but I’d say theres something wrong with people who aren’t depressed to some level right now as we watch our country circle the socialist drain of mediocrity. Happy people during these times are the abnormal and frankly scary ones.
-- miles125, Alabama.."Architecture is frozen music""
bhack
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posted 160 days ago
Thank all of you for the kind and caring remarks. I think I spent about six hours in the shop today. It feels good to pull splinters from my fingers. Without a doubt the caring love from my wife is my biggest medicine.
Thanks again to all LJs out there. This site is very Therapeutic indeed.
-- Bill - If I knew GRANDKIDS were so much fun I would have had them first.
dustbunny
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posted 160 days ago
Bill,
Thank you for sharing your story. Depression/mental illness is not always an easy thing to share. I did a year as an RN on an inpatient psychiatric unit, depression is real, and you can’t just wish it away. It is very much like being a diabetic. The pancreas doesn’t produce any or enough insulin, so they take insulin. Your body doesn’t produce enough of one of the chemicals your brain needs to function properly, so… you take a supplement. Simple as that. Good the one you’re taking seems to be helping, some people aren’t lucky enough to get it on the first prescription.
Happy Woodworking to you!!
Lisa
-- I inherited the woodworking gene and it's gone into overdrive.......
TopamaxSurvivor
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posted 160 days ago
Glad to hear your are getting better. Hope you get some meds that will help. I never had it until I took Topamax for migraine prevention. The dr that was going to fix me, without admittting Topamax had any negative side effects, wanted to put me on Seroquel to spend the rest of my life sittng in a corner twiddling my thumbs. Be very careful of the clowns out there who practice medicine!! If my wife and kids hadn’t researched the meds and fired the drs, there is no doubt in my mind I would be dead now. GEt a copy of the Physicains Desk Reference, PDR. Check every med’s sides they try to put you on. Have your wife watch for changes and side effects with every med change. Never, never, never, trust a dr with your life! Remember, someone finished at the back of the class in med school too!
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SteveKorz
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posted 160 days ago
Bill -
Glad you’re back…. I only wish you the best!
Steve
-- As iron sharpens iron, so one man sharpens another. (Proverbs 27:17) †
Jojo
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posted 159 days ago
I’m glad to see you are getting out of the hole Bill. Hang out there and keep going into the shop as much as you can but be extremely careful with mixing drugs and tools.
I’m fortunate enough to never been there but I’ve seen other people near to me suffering from it and it’s something I don’t wish to anybody.
Hey! And if you ever need something either shoot us a message right here on LJ or a PM.
-- Jojo, shopless in Kyoto · http://www.japanese-woodworking-tools.com/ · http://twitter.com/japanesetools
jockmike2
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posted 159 days ago
It seems to be the norm now days to have some kind of depression, I too suffer from it’s affects brought on by my broken back, loss of job, loneliness, etc. We define ourselves so much by our jobs, and pain can wear on you so badly, after awhile death does seem like an option. It is very real. Friends and family want to blame themselves, and they can’t understand it has nothing whatsoever to do with them. It is a deep hole to climb out of keep up the therapy. It saved my life, along with the love of my family, friends and this site. mike
-- Mike. mwurm13@yahoo.com
bhack
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posted 159 days ago
Wow, thanks for all the support. The support of family is paramont, Medication, and the response here has been key. Thanks to all of you I have a third very strong support.
Jojo, thank you.
-- Bill - If I knew GRANDKIDS were so much fun I would have had them first.
Zuki
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posted 159 days ago
What you shared was not easy an easy thing to do nor is it an easy thing to live with.
Glad to hear you are back in the saddle.
-- The significant problems we face cannot be solved by the same level of thinking that created them
MsDebbieP
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posted 141 days ago
congrats on the “celebration of splinters” :)
wishing you all the best as you make your way through this
-- ~ Debbie, Canada (http://www.execulink.com/~yohan)