Hey all, I already suffer from an anxiety/panic disorder which led me to find woodworking as my escape. I use it to gain focus, clear my mind and lower my breathing, heart rate and anxiety. When working with wood, I get so focused on the wood, that I don’t think or worry about anything else around me or whatever happened throughout the day. I listen to country music as I woodwork in my garage and brings me to a calm place.
Only thing now after working with wood for about 4 years, I have grown to love it so much, not only for relaxtion, but just pure enjoyment, creativity and self gratification. My constant revolving mind gets focused towards designs and unthinkable projects. Ever since I bought my house 2 years ago its a never ending dream of all custom work I can do to my house and I get filled with so much excitement.
I get so excited about the things I can build for my house, I get excited about setting up a shop to sell gifts and trinquets out of, I get excited about wanting to become so good that I too one day can have my project displayed in one of the woodworking magazines I read all the time, and I get excited that each year that goes by and I look back at what I couldnt achieve the year before and makes me wonder what will I be capable of making next year that I can’t now.
It’s not so much an obsession but just pure excitement and an ambition, that raise my heart rate, increases my breathing and keeps my thoughts revolving which feels just like anxiety but only good. The only thing is I can’t find enough time in my life to fullfil everything I think of. I am young, 26 years old, work a full time job, spend time with my wonderful wife and do numerous projects a months for colleagues and friends, but at the end of the day, its frustrating to think what if I never get to that next design, or one of my imaginatitive creations gets lots between the cautious. I have sketches, plans, photos, chicken scratch in all kinds of folders, I have projects bookmarked in endless copies of woodworking magazines, I have a library collection of woodworking techniques. I just dont have the time, to complete the things that I think of. And I am not complaining so much because I know that all the projects that I do for everyone else pays for my new tools, and my new lumber and my new project for my house, but I am too excited to wait.
Honestly I don’t know why I decided to blog this, maybe one of you will understand and have the same feelings towards your work. Maybe by telling you all how I feel maybe someone feels the same. I needed to get it out and I feel better.
Thanks all for listening and reading and keep dreaming of the next great project!!
-- Mike, Florida, http://www.woodsimplymade.com