Okay, this started as a response to Benji Reyes blog on The Need to Design but I didn’t want to leave such a long response on someones blog when it kind of goes on and off subject. I also didn’t want to loose the process of thought.
Therefore, I won’t change the format:
Thank you for your guidance. I sometimes lose myself in the every day task of life. Being a graduate of the arts, “identity” or “your own style” has been something taught and preached through schooling. I have searched for this and feel I have yet to find it or develop it. I hope that one day I am face to face with it. And maybe I am already who knows. But to look at your work gives me feelings of enjoyment and jealousy.
Jealousy—Well this may not be the best word to describe it. But to explain I look at your work and your accomplishment in the path to identity. I see you making something functional but it goes beyond functional and expresses something about you. And that is what makes me jealous not your work but your knowledge of the path to your own style. Patience is one of my biggest problems. It’s almost like I say to myself why didn’t I think of that. I look at your work and the wavy fluent lines. Then, I look at my work and I wonder why my work doesn’t capture motion as yours does (just boring). Maybe, I’m over thinking it, maybe I am not a fluent person, and I’m just more cut and dry analytical. I do have a tendency to obsess over squareness. I have a lot of squares and till this day I still don’t believe any of them are square. I also like to use rulers when possible because it needs to be to the 32nd and left center or right of the line. I don’t feel this is the rooting of style or identity but more of a shackle keeping me from moving forward on this path. There is just something I am missing or at least I think there is. Maybe, I am being too spiritual or mythological with the idea of the phrase “your own style’. Maybe “my own style” is there, and I just don’t see it because I don’t even know my true self yet. Well hopefully one day I will come back to these questions and answer them myself.
But until then feel free to ponder and give me your 2cents.
-- Wood,clay,metal, and stone are all just materials, until an artist's hand touches them.--TreeFormDesign