Well, here we are nearing the end of the day and it is time to look back and reflect on what has happened. The following is a journal entry I made early this morning:
_As Rick and I prepare to drive to London, to a woodworking supplier, I am filled with excitement and feel like a little girl on Christmas morning (or a birthday or some other exciting event).
On the surface, I know why I am so excited – we are going to buy tools and supplies for our wood shop.. Oh yah…
But, as I sit here, waiting for the time of departure to arrive, I start to think about what is lying underneath this excitement – what am I really looking forward to, or why is this so important to me?
This question is so important, not just because I want to know what I am looking forward to, but also because it provides clues to what my journey on earth is all about. The answers will give me more insight into who I am, what drives me, what my gifts are, and what my Spirit needs to feel fulfilled.
So here goes: off the top of my head, these are some things that are inspiring the excitement:
- spending the day with Rick
- purchasing something new, something to provide a new learning opportunity for me
- acquiring a new outlet for my creativity, an opportunity to further discover what I am meant to use to express myself
- spending the day with Rick (now, isn’t that interesting that that came up twice!!
- finding something that Rick and I can do together (If you are aware of Gary Chapman’s Love Languages, then you will see the pattern of “needing to spend TIME with my partner”)
- hope — the fire of passion inside me hopes that the day will guide me to something that will be the release, setting the fire free, letting the creativity, the Spirituality, boil out through my work
As I try to find words for this self-expression I can feel the energy build inside me. My hands begin to tingle as the expectation builds and the hope gets stronger. Perhaps today is the day. Perhaps “who I am” will finally be able to be expressed. My heart is pounding, my hands are tingling and I know: I know that this is what drives the excitement.
So what does this say about who I am? Nothing that I did not know before. I am a person of vision and creativity. I need to express myself in a variety of ways. I need to create something, some how. I ache to discover the outlet that is my gift.
This process also reminds me that I am seeking a balance in my life. I am craving that something that will make my life feel complete. Or perhaps put another way, it is telling me that my “comfort zone” of who I am today and what I do today needs to change and grow. I am in a time of transition, once again, and I am excited about discovering the new stage and watching it unfold!
Since I was a young woman, I have wanted to do something with wood. I love the feel of wood, I love the smell of wood, I love the power and the journey of wood, I love the connection between my Self and the Spirit of wood. Perhaps today I find a tool or an idea of how to make this connection sing!
And the excitement builds._
... and so my morning began.
Our firs stop was “Busy Bee Tools” in London, Ontario where we found some really great deals on pretty much everything – including a Dremel Scroll Saw for almost $100 cheaper than what I paid for mine and what I have seen for the price everywhere else I have looked. Anyway, having checked things out there we swung over to Lee Valley to check out their inventory first hand. That was really interesting and we ended up buying a couple of books and a leather apron to keep the sawdust off my lap. Now, working with leather I first thought that I should just make it but since it was the cost of a hide and I’d still have to buy the straps/hooks etc, I thought it was a much better idea just to buy it ready made.
From here, we went back to Busy Bee and purchased a Band saw that Rick really liked and was – a really great deal. We loaded that up in -9 C weather (with a wind chill of about -20C) and headed back towards home.
We didn’t go directly home, though, as we wanted to check out the OneWay lathes at a shop in Boston, Ontario and so we bypassed the house and kept on going, ignoring the semi-blizzard that was starting to create poor visbility in places. But we had a goal …
The gentleman at Chalet Woodcraft was wonderful and talked us through purchasing a lathe. Step 1: take a class to see what you really want to do with the lathe. Then you get a lathe that meets the need.
The OneWay lathes are a little more expensive than what Rick was looking at so that is on hold at this point. The owner did have a display room/sales room with numerous bowls, vases, pens, ornaments, etc. While the guys talked technical stuff I browsed around and fell in love with the creations!
So, with the lathe on hold, we finally made it back home where we next had to figure out how to get a 300 + pound band saw off the truck, into the house, down to the basement, around the 180 degree bend, into the shop, assembled and ready for the test run.
Not sure how, but we managed it, in pretty good time, I might add. And so there we were admiring the accomplishment of the day and ready to plug ‘er in… Yup.. ready to.. ah… oh… doh… argh…....... the machine didn’t have an ordinary plug. Ah, how times change!!
And so here we sit, knowing that a new piece of machinery sits waiting in the basement.. waiting to be used… waiting for power… waiting to be able to be plugged in.
I’m sure there is a reason for the new plug style… I’m sure it is a very good reason… I’m sure that the sales people assumed that we knew… I’m sure that the owner’s manual assumed that we knew… I’m sure that we now know something that we didn’t know 12 hours ago!!
And now… the excitement is on hold.
-- ~ Debbie, Canada (http://www.execulink.com/~yohan)