Well, I’ve finally hit the wall … the carving process has been going really well and the personal struggle to push through fears has also been relatively easy and successful… but this week I hit the big barrier, challenge, self-awareness, or whatever you want to call it.
It’s been a few days now since Jordan posted the blog on carving the laces and right away I could feel the wall forming. I put off taking the next step.. and I put it off some more.. but I knew that I had to do it sometime and I had to do it soon or the shoe would sit unfinished.
So yesterday I prepared to carve the laces. I can’t put it into words but the precision necessary to carve the details of the laces, well… that “something” within me is winning and I think my shoe will be lace-less.
I have struggled for a couple of days, not with the carving, but with trying to identify what this roadblock is for me. If I could identify the barrier than I could find a way to overcome it or work around it. But … identifying “it” seems to be as difficult as carving the laces.
When I talked about creativity in a previous blog I mentioned feeling like being stuffed into a box when I feel my creativity is being blocked. The feeling, now, is similar but different. If I could describe it, I could understand it; if I could understand it, I could manage it.
However frustrating this is, it is also fascinating. I do love the self-awareness process. I’ll just have to keep digging away at it—oh wait, that’s the next stage of the shoe challenge, digging away at the hole in the shoe! HA.
But now.. today.. I have to make a decision about the laces. I’ll keep you posted.
-- ~ Debbie, Canada (http://www.execulink.com/~yohan)