Today I got the Dremel out and started uncovering the sole of my shoe. And then I had to pause…
A pause.. why, you ask? I had to take a picture at this point because from this point forward things could start going wrong. Right now, it looks likes the sole of a shoe. I feel like stopping right now and putting my shoe on display – “look what I did”.
But, alas, that is not what this journey is about and i must continue to move forward. So I switched tips, grabbed a pencil and started marking the little lines in the sole’s design. At this point I was starting to see the “non-perfection” appear and was glad that I had taken a photo of the “before”. I haven’t carved any of the lines yet but they are SO tiny….
And then I had a visitor. A Beautiful red damselfly landed on my chest and as I looked down it was just a few inches from my face. She spread her wings out and relaxed, wiping her face and staring up at me. She and I had a conversation for about 15 minutes.
I am a believer in learning from wildlife, learning life strategies from how they live, in other words: Animal Totems. Damselflies and dragonflies have many characteristics of survival, living, and beauty. Here is a quote from this site:
- The power of Dragonfly lies in its ability to see around things by looking from different angles. Using its ability to transform colors and lights by reflecting and refracting them, Dragonfly shows us that life, like light, can bend, shift, and adapt in various ways, making life’s appearance never be what it appears to be. Dragonfly’s magic shows us to see through life’s illusions and find our true vision. It calls us to transform within our lives and reminds us to feel deeply so we will have the compassion necessary to help ourselves and others.
I smile as I think of the wisdom of my visitor. Not only does it apply to my own life, as I move through the nagging voice of fear and perfectionism and attempt my first carving, but it also speaks to the carving itself. The wisdom reminds me to look at the shoe from different angles, to observe the light and shadows, seeing beyond first appearances, discovering how my shoe really looks.
When the damselfly said good-bye, I put down the wood and put down the pencil. I need a finer tipped pencil to be more precise. I need to put my glasses on and really look at those details on the shoe. I need to “see” and I need to “be”.
And the pause continues.
-- ~ Debbie, Canada (http://www.execulink.com/~yohan)