Its been a long time sense I have been on. Not because of anything anyone here has done. You see, I lost my brother not long back. He had a huge heart attack that took him home to be with God. Its been really hard to deal with as everything I have ever learned about wood working and fixing cars and stuff I learned from Kevin. He taught me the basics of all this stuff. Every time I pick up a tool, my thoughts go to him.
Kevin always said that day he died he wanted to be buried in a pine box so thats what we did. Brian, my other brother, got him a plain Pine box. No frills or thrills. Simple and plain just as Kevin asked. We buried him under and old oak tree out in California. We laid him in the vault, put the cap stone on and Dad, Brian, Kevin’s two sons and I picked up shovels and laid my brother to rest at 48 years of age.
Kevin was the oldest of us three boys. He was a good brother, loving father and a great friend. I miss him so much that it hurts but Kevin would never have wanted us mourn his loss. He said that this life was only a stopping point and home is really heaven.
I got to sing for him one last time at his funeral. It was a song my a group called Mercy Me and the title of the song is called “Homesick”. It speaks of those of us who have lost some one very dear and close. And for those who have a relationship with Jesus Christ there are no goodbyes. The hurt and pain we feel is due to the loss of the loved one because we can no longer share times together. Bereavement comes from the root word reave which means to take away by force. It is sometimes sudden like it was for us. We hurt and grieve the loss but for those in Christ there is hope that we will some day see our loved ones again. So I am doing just as Kevin would have wanted me to and as the song tells us. “Hold on to Jesus with all that I have” to see Kevin again. For now I grieve but I also live not just for Kevin’s sake but for God. To give God the glory in all things and living as Kevin would have wanted me to. Sharing the love and grace of Jesus Christ.
So I continue to work with wood and other materials as Kevin taught me and as God inspires me. I have a project that I will be starting on soon that will be in Kevin’s honor. I will share the work with all of you and maybe some stories of a great brother and practical joker.
In memory of My Big Brother,
-- In His Grip,