When I first started woodworking –It was very hard for me to finish any projects because I was such a perfectionist. Nothing was ever good enough. This lead too many hours of frustration and self doubts. I had to find a balance between being fussy or putting out a quality project and accepting that enough was enough. One of the hardest lessons I am still learning is “leave well enough alone” That, knows when to stop- so I don’t go over board and ruin something. When I took on my remodeling projects and set a time frame to build all the furniture in my house I knew that the time table was going to be tight. I only had so much time to do this work before I had to move out of my home into the one I was remodeling. Besides there was a limit to how long I could make extensive investments and two mortgage payments. I wasn’t willing to sacrifice quality but soon realized I couldn’t be perfect. It simply wasn’t practical. There lies the challenge and dilemma that I still fight to this day. It’s still hard to know when enough is enough and when to move on.
Things like knots or imperfect grains used to matter a lot to me. I have learned now to embrace these natural things. I find rather than distracting from the project they can really add to the overall beauty and character.
I know that I am my own worst critic and very hard on my self and have high expectations. I never have had a project that I couldn’t find something wrong with or if I was to build it again………
I being self taught have always felt like I couldn’t build anything that anyone would find pleasing and I constantly fought with my self confidence.
Over time this has improved somewhat-but I still fight with this. I am very humbled when others find my work pleasing.
I can readily point out my mistakes.
Some times I just need to be silent and take the compliments as hard as it is to do. .I just Say thank you, and not show them all the flaws I see in the projects.
That is what keeps me going- trying to improve.
In my next blog I will share some of the things that has helped me over come this problem.
I often wonder if I am the only one who experiences this.