I am brand new to this site so I hope I am even doing this correctly. I’d like to use this series to give my opinions and such about day to day life, etc. I am choosing this first post to let you inside the inner workings of who I am as a person. My shortcomings, my passions and my character. Of course I will get to posting more site-related topics in other series (if I do this correctly)l.
I pride myself in not keeping secrets about who I am, how I tick and how I feel. I chose to make this my first topic post so that everyone knows all about who I am. It is not my intention to alienate, disrespect, offend or break any rules.
I’m a single 41 yr old man living in Hamilton, Texas. Population around 3000. I love small towns. The only thing wrong with it is that it isn’t a good place to meet single folks ;)
I’ve been in the scrolling community a little over 10 years. Through those years I have learned (sometimes the hard way) what seems to work and what doesn’t. I still fail often at being who I want to be. When I first began I honestly wasn’t too impressed with the quality of patterns I was seeing. I mean no disrespect to pattern designers from that era or any designers in general. It seemed to me that almost all designs were aimed at beginners. Yes, I was a beginner, but they all looked too simple and too “undetailed”. In looking at my own growth in designing I sometimes laugh at my own patterns from way back when. Anyway, that’s what made me decide to try to make my own patterns. I strive for as realistic as possible most times.
The methods I chose to get my name out there weren’t always well received or well thought out for that matter. I basically spammed everybody trying to get my designs out there. I wish I could take that back, but of course I can’t. I got better about not spamming but then my personality ran some off as well. Let me explain my personality.
Most of my life I was bullied, talked down to and was never really able to speak my mind without some kind of negative consequences. Due to that, in trying to grow out of that mindset, sometimes I go overboard. I vowed I would never allow myself to be “stepped on” and would speak my mind. In general I am a happy-go-lucky kind of guy. I almost never get upset unless I feel I am being disrespected. That disrespect can be in words or actions. I never lie and never set out to deceive anyone so if it’s implied that I am either of those things…I get upset. I mentioned all of that because Lord only knows some of the rumors that could be going around about me lol.
I am on disability for panic disorder. Basically, that means the chemical in my brain that is produced during fear..is over productive. Being in disability is sadly why I rely on pattern sales so much. I also suffer from depression, but to me, it isn’t clinical. My depression is usually situational. 9 times out of 10 I am down because I’m alone and because I’m pretty much always broke. Like I said, I live in a small town and hardly know anyone so I DO see the online community as my family and the place to vent and reach out. I believe that’s why there may be some negative feelings about me floating around. I believe, to some, I am seen as a whiner among other things. Guilty. I vent and complain about my constant bad luck and such.
In admitting those faults I also feel like I am a very helpful person. If I can help someone with a pattern, scrolling advice, etc. I will. ANYONE. I’m not sure if it shows online, but when I am around people, I love to make them laugh. I am known for my big heart and sense of humor. Being single and thinking that the ideal relationship to be in would be a woman who is into woodworking/scrollsawing I sometimes flirt. Being that I’m imperfect…sometimes I flirt too much and may even cross the line. I assure you, that isn’t intentional. Some may not be able to tell, but I truly do care how people perceive me and what kind of image I cast of myself.
As a final topic in this introduction into who I am I will do a quick rundown of my family and growing up. I am the youngest of 4 kids. Youngest by 11 minutes. I have a twin brother and two older sisters. My parents have been married for 46 years. My dad is retired Army (Special Forces- Green Beret). He was in for 23 yrs. I was raised VERY strict. Mine and my dad’s bond has been rocky at times but now my bond with him is tight and I wouldn’t change it for the world. I have a very close knit family.
Ok, well that’s the peek into me. Now onto some scrolling/designing talk when I can come up with enough.
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